Musing on living a life uses difficulty and conflict as signals for what I care about most… Maria Nemeth, PhD nails it;
Life is hard when you don’t do what you truly value because you are putting all your energy into trying to get rid of your fears rather than materializing your dreams…
You become early before your time when you trade your dreams for illusions of security.
Give moving towards the difficulty a chance. You might be surprised by what you find.